at the break of dawn

woke up very early today to send my sister off to the airport..this isn't the first time that she's goin for a trip w her fren n it certainly won't b the last hahah.. but y is it that my mum n i never fail to miss her everytime she goes on vacation.. the three of us spent abt 5 min at the doorway sniffin n tearin before we went downstairs to get a cab this morning..And this got me thinkin a little further..i found myself wondering wat would it b like when she eventually gets married..n wat would it be like when i got married too??would the three of us be separated??just the other evening, my mum cried while tellin me that she couldn't help picturin her two precious daughters without a father to "give" us away on our wedding days...n i said "but the truth is that jie n i are not the only ones without a dad.."=)N i strongly feel that there is no better person than my mom who has earned the right to "give" us away on our wedding days after wat she has done n is still doin for us both...
p.s.yes i noe she's definitly less than perfect but she's definitly very lovable most of the time

sometimes u can't make it on ur own

recently...my mum had been acting a little strange..in fact i don think it's a little..i think it is too extreme...she seems to get agitated really easily these days..she'll start screamin..initially i tot that it was because she wasn't happy that i was attached because she kept chanting that i meet him too often...it was only when my sis mentioned it to me that i realized it wasn't wat i tot at all..in fact, it's because she is very stressed abt my uni posting...it totally slipped my mind that she has a very high tendency to behave this way whenever she is stressed abt somethin..she may not believe this but i'm a million times more stressed abt it than her..it's like my worst nightmare...i remember the one promise that i made to my father-to make it to the uni...and at this point in time i have no idea whether i'll be able to..i just feel that it would be better if my mum n i could be stressed abt it together..in that way she doesn't have to shout at me abt other things which have no relevance what so ever to the matter..
she has done and is still doing so much for me that i highly doubt that i'll be able to repay her this life time...i love her soooo much..i can't help but feel that i've let her down with regard to my a level results..

a little too much

u know there are times when u feel kind of stupid??well i felt intelligent for once today..hahah was watchin this reality series on cable...it was sooooooooo fake...everyone (gals n guys) were talking in this manner"i'm like..","he's like"...hahahahah i know my eng sucks but i certainly do not tok like that .. hahha anyway...i felt that the show had no plot watsoever..the stuff that they were tokin abt was soooooooooo shallow...n throughout the few episodes that i watched, i had a feeling that their main concern was how to backstab each other..furthermore i had a hard time figurin out who was who because they all looked the same!!!hahahah
lame lame lame!!!!