sometimes u can't make it on ur own

recently...my mum had been acting a little strange..in fact i don think it's a little..i think it is too extreme...she seems to get agitated really easily these days..she'll start screamin..initially i tot that it was because she wasn't happy that i was attached because she kept chanting that i meet him too often...it was only when my sis mentioned it to me that i realized it wasn't wat i tot at all..in fact, it's because she is very stressed abt my uni posting...it totally slipped my mind that she has a very high tendency to behave this way whenever she is stressed abt somethin..she may not believe this but i'm a million times more stressed abt it than her..it's like my worst nightmare...i remember the one promise that i made to my father-to make it to the uni...and at this point in time i have no idea whether i'll be able to..i just feel that it would be better if my mum n i could be stressed abt it together..in that way she doesn't have to shout at me abt other things which have no relevance what so ever to the matter..
she has done and is still doing so much for me that i highly doubt that i'll be able to repay her this life time...i love her soooo much..i can't help but feel that i've let her down with regard to my a level results..