they mean the world to me

just got back from my hong kong trip...it was the very first trip that we went alone..this is basically because on previous trips, we would usually go with my aunt or my sis's ex...well..to tell u the truth..it was fuckin fun this time...really...m not sayin this because i'm a sour grape but i really didn't expect it to be so fun...n honestly..i'm pretty proud of myself because i was like the navigator hahah..i think mummy enjoyed herself too...
seriously...after this trip..i've realised that my mum n sis mean the world to me..i've also realised that y i got into a relationship with him back then was not so much because i liked him but it was because i was still living with my aunt and things were really very ugly at home..i was drowning and he allowed me to come up for fresh air...if i really liked him..i would have told him abt all the quarrels back then...instead...whenever there was a dispute between my mum n aunt..i would choose to talk to him over the phone about anything other than abt my problems...so i guess i've never liked him...in the mean time...i feel blessed to have my mum and sis with me..and that's more than enough for now